HOW???

There are plenty of them tell me not to think, get over it! But HOW?
I need to know how? What should i do? everything is keep turning in my mind i didnt want it to bother me. Please....take it away from me!!! I just want to be myself. The one who doesnt know 'you'. The me who doesnt know your exist!!! But i guess there's no magic posion which make people forget the past. i should psyco and psyco myself!!! I wana get rid of everything....is everything!

Memories

When it's rainy day, he'll be carrying umbrella for you. Hug you tightly with his strong arm, without getting you wet!
When you feel thirsty, there's always extra bottle in his bag; and say 'Its for you'. When you're angry, he won't mind sitting beside and comfort you; and say 'even if devils wanted to kill me I'm not afraid of it'.
When you're exhausted, the broad, warm yet comfy chest is ready for you; and say 'sleep well my dear'.
When you feel like crying, no tissues, no napkins but warm fingers brush over your cheek with a big bear hug; and say 'sorry'.
When weather turns cold, the warm body temp. helps to warm you up; and say 'feeling better dear'.
When it's hot sunny day, cute and funny him trying to blow cold wind for you; and say 'cool?'.
When you're curling in your bed, there's 'I LOVE YOU' whispering through your little ears; and say 'Sleep tight!'

When it's time to say Goodbye, the small smooth lip burn your throat and touches your forehead; and say 'I'll miss you tonight'.

When having a short night walk, try to step on his shadow and make him laugh at you; and say 'You're so cute!'.
When you're having an important interview, he'll be holding your hands and pray for you; and say 'Don't worry you're doing well, Darling'.
When he says, "You're just a God's gift to me"; He really means it.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~My Love~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
My heart starts beating in a mess rhythm since the day u left;
Loves is just like intersection of two different life; You and Me!
Now! It might be a short Break...May faith let us meet again in future.
My beloved laughter, Pinkie smooth lips, honey velvet voices....
My Pretty Memories...
They fill my dreams every single night!
The MISS he'll never know and the LOVE he'll never feel....
~Loves someone that Loves you more...~

What does that means?

What does that means " waiting to pay you with wat you want"? does that means you going to say yes to her? i dun noe... why this make me feel uncomfortable...i ned to breath, i'm suffocating!!!

Why?

Why? my dear... if push me away can make u happier i willing to stay far away from you. But why? why is still emptiness in your life? Why you're still so unhappy? i just want you to be happy, if you see me or listen to me will make you sad i can just walk away. but now...u din seems happy anyway. What happen to you darling? i'm always here...standing at my position and wait for you to come to me...dear, dun feel guilty or put extra stress on yourself! relax... Just go and do what you wan and find what you need! Try to find place that make you happy and just go for it. Luck and god bless...

May God Bless me?

I'm back in this complicated problem again. I seriously tired in this already, what can i do? Jesus if you really always by our side, can you show me the way out?

Wasting Life!

I'm seriously wasting my life everyday! i can't sleep, i can't eat....
my mind isnt working rite!!! Baby you seriously dun noe how much i need you how much i love you. So sick viewing ur acc and see all those sweet msg from her.... i wish i'm thinking too much! Darling i'm in lost, i lost my track of my life. mayb she doesn't mean anything but is stil so uncomfortable for me darling. SICK!!! I HATE THIS... I just wan YOU.

Empty..

No matter how i queeze my time with work, school, sleep... there's still empty time for you to appeared in my mind. it makes me so unwell, i'm starting to hate myself whenever i stared into the mirror, it juz reflects my ugly dull face. it's just so natural to see your facebook account every moment, it make me feel even worse when your happy pictures flash in front of me.
Its so dumb for me to keep thinking, and you won't ever know. The promise of special friend is just a lie to keep me away isn't it? Maybe i'm just so childish! I jealous i angry when i think of your past...
You treat her so well even she treat you cruel. But me? I got nothing! I swear i did better than her, and i din't ruin your life but you ruin mine. I starts confusing myself already, If i choose to wait, is is worthy? Will you still come back to me?
I starts thinking all the family matters is just excuses. They're just excuses for you to push me away...